Thank you for inviting me come visit with you all.
Did you ever wonder what it would be like to have a book with your name on the cover? That’s a dream many people have, so I am going to share with you a bit about how I got started in my writing career.
First, some background. I grew up here in Jackson County. My folks bought a farm over in the Arcade area, in the early 1960’s. Both of my parents were hard workers, who wanted the best for their three daughters, but they weren’t always able to provide that. I don’t feel that I had an underprivileged childhood, but we had some real struggles, especially financially.
The small farm where we lived kept us a bit more isolated from our peers than if we’d lived in town, so my two sisters and I had to entertain ourselves much of the time. Of course, this was before the advent of cable and satellite television, video games and other modern forms of entertainment, so we had to use our imaginations quite a bit. After we’d seen the rerun of Gilligan’s Island, it was time to read or write something.
My sisters used to write radio commercials and tape them, as if they were radio actors. Most of their efforts parodied what we saw on television, but they really were entertaining. And those exercises served them well— one of them has a degree in advertising and is a vice president for corporate communications at a bank in Atlanta. The other has a degree in marketing and is the owner of a business in Virginia called Print Solutions, which does marketing for many prestigious clients including the Baptist Association of Virginia and Dupont. And each sister makes about 15,000 dollars a year more than a teacher with a master’s degree and twenty years of experience, so I guess it is safe to say they are successful.
Back during our childhood, my sisters and I accompanied Mom almost anytime her car left the farm, and she always took us to our local library every two weeks, b/c we weren’t the kind of folks who could buy many books— and all of us read voraciously. Libraries are still near and dear to my heart, because they provide such wonderful opportunities as well as entertainment. As I was a bit older than my sisters, I read more novel length fiction, which we got in our biweekly visits to the library, and that led me in a different direction. While my sisters are involved in the corporate world, and I am a former teacher and a fledgling writer. And it all goes back to the fact that I never wrote any commercials, although I laughed quite a bit at my sister’s versions of what we heard on television and radio.
No, when I wrote, I wrote stories, often really bad stories about women who were as lovely and as deadly as Mrs. Emma Peel of the Avengers, who was the celebrity I most wanted to emulate when I was twelve years old. I don’t know what my generation would have thought of Britney Spears. I really don’t.
When I graduated from high school, I went to Piedmont College in Demorest, Georgia. Although I was proud to be going to college, my fiction writing almost ended right there.
My mother had already taught me more about literature than many of the student teachers I’ve had come into my classroom, so I didn’t have too many problems with my course of study in the English department. Except for Butch Hodge. Dr. Hodge was a long-haired, bearded mountain man— a professor of English, a poet, and my personal nemesis. Somehow he found out that I wrote fiction as a hobby, and he insisted that I bring him something, so I took him a short story. After giving it a cursory reading, he said, "Miss Dodd, you’re a damn fine critic, but don’t bother writing fiction. Forget it."
It’s rather obvious that I kept on writing. But I quit showing it to anyone. Anyone. I put all of my writing in used manila envelopes which mom got at the church where she worked as a secretary and hid each story after I finished it.
Time passed, and I graduated from Piedmont College, taught school for a while, quit teaching school, sold lumber, and worked in a bank in Jefferson. During the time that I was a teller at the First National Bank of Jackson County, I short changed one of my customers, a young lawyer named David Motes, and within a couple of years, we were married. By that time, I had returned to teaching, because my then Assistant District Attorney boyfriend said he couldn’t afford to marry a girl who worked in a bank.
Teaching was for me a love/hate relationship. I love talking with kids and seeing what they have to say, because they are so funny. But I found that teaching English, with all those essays, to be very time consuming,
and I hated not having as much time as I wanted for my personal life.
Despite the lack of time, I did sometimes write fiction, especially
in the summers. Then we had children, and I wrote very little fiction
for quite a while. I did my first real "word processing" about
that time, though. And somewhere along in there, I began to take old
story ideas, still in their beat up manila envelopes, and I would rewrite
them, putting them on the computer. I did this for years, just as a
hobby. I’m telling you, when I had a bad day in the classroom,
I went home, and Angie had a worse day. So, more than any of my other
pieces, The Gift Horse was the stress relief book.
When our son was
in the first grade, he began having some emotional problems and it became
increasingly apparent that while David might be a good judge, and I
might be a good teacher, we weren’t doing too well as parents.
We took a long hard look at how difficult it was for us to care for
our school aged children and do our jobs— jobs that often took
many more than the traditional forty or so hours a week, and we decided
that one of us should quit. As a superior court judge he makes a lot
more than I ever did, so I didn’t sign that little thingy known
as a contract, and in short order, I went from being teacher, annual
staff advisor, and so forth to just Mom. During the transition period,
David and I talked about what I might do with all that extra time. Early
in our marriage, I had told him that I would not ever iron his shirts,
so instead of expecting a lot of domestic work, which was totally unrealistic,
he suggested that I "do something with that book I was always working
on."
By this time I actually
had several partial manuscripts sitting on the hard drive of my computer,
but one of them was closer to being finished than the others, so I decided
to concentrate on it. I went to a writer’s conference at UGA and
pulled it together into what I thought was reasonably good form. I sent
a lot of query letters and got a lot of rejections. I did get a few
nibbles from agents. I talked with agent from a well known firm in New
York who said that I had a great deal of talent, but she felt the only
way to make my story palatable to a publisher would be to set the whole
thing in outer space. I just didn’t think I could do that. About
that time a small publisher in Wisconsin sent a four-page critique and
said that if I’d rewrite the whole book, they would like a second
look.
Okay, that was not
good, but they didn’t mention outer space. Disgusted, I threw
the box in a drawer and worked on important things like cutting the
grass and eradicating weeds in the flowerbeds. I didn’t rewrite
The Gift Horse until it got too cold to do much yard work. After I rewrote
it, I sent it back to the publisher that had expressed interest in it.
Finally, Gardenia Press in Wisconsin accepted my novel, about a year
after I first sent it to them. That was really a cloud-nine experience.
And then nothing much happened.
Actually, that was
good timing, because I had promised a fellow teacher that if her husband
won a Fulbright Fellowship to go teach in Israel for a semester, that
I would fill in for her. He won, and I went back to the classroom for
that semester. When my sentence to the classroom was up in late May,
I called my publisher and said, "Where’s my manuscript?"
There was a bit
of silence on the other end of the phone. "Oh, we thought you were
busy teaching."
"I was. Now
I’m not. It’s hot down here in Georgia, and I need an excuse
to stay inside where it’s cool. Don’t you have some rewriting
I need to do?"
"We’ll
get back to you."
And I waited a while
longer. When the weather got just right, like October, the manuscript
came back. I promise you; I never put that many red marks on a student
essay. At least I hope not. That manuscript, all three hundred pages
of it, was bleeding profusely. The first editor they chose for The
Gift Horse didn’t like my writing style, my characters,
or my plot. I’m sitting there, reading this stuff, and wondering
why the acquisitions editor was so interested in it if everything was
wrong! For two weeks, I let it sit, and then I gritted my teeth, wrote
a reply to her critique and fixed what I thought really needed fixing,
ignored the rest, and sent it back.
A couple of months
later, again, I was on the phone, saying, "Where is my manuscript?"
It took another
six months and a new editor to get it ready for print. Everything was
set for a release within a month, then my publisher died, resulting
in total chaos at the company and eventual bankruptcy for her business
partner.
At this point, I
had been trying to get into print for about three years. My first thought
was to start sending The Gift Horse to other publishers,
but after all that editing, I thought it was ready to go. That sister
who runs a marketing and printing business in Virginia had told me two
years before that she’d get into print inside a month, but I was
quite concerned about the stigma associated with people who pay to be
published.
With Gardenia Press
in disarray and people coming up to me in the grocery store asking when
my book was going to be out, I had to do something. Ultimately, I chose
what is known as a print-on-demand publisher, Booklocker. This company
only accepts 15% of the manuscripts submitted, rather than publishing
anything— for a big price. Booklocker makes money by selling books,
not off wanna be authors. Once they take you on, they handle contacts
with the actual printer, and they can handle direct orders via the internet
and faxed orders from bookstores. Also, they listed the book with a
wholesaler, Ingram, and they have posted it on too many internet booksellers
to count, but they are like Amazon.com and Books A Million online. Booklocker’s
covers didn’t do much for me, so, I got a graphic artist in Washington
State to design the cover. Publishing this way did result in a few expenditures
on my part, but I’ve done enough of these speeches and book signings
to break even.
I read in the New York Times book review that all first
novels are at least partially autobiographical. That scares me just
a bit. Yes, there is some of Pamela J. Dodd in this book. But my main
character is thirty years younger than I am, and she is thin and I was
once, for about half an hour. She has auburn hair-- and mine’s
never been any color other than the one you’re looking at, and
she’s a gourmet cook— and most of you have no way of knowing,
but when we have pot luck dinners, I sign up to bring the paper products.
Okay? Those details should lay that theory to rest. This novel isn’t
autobiographical.
Some of the characters
are totally invented, but some are composites— that is, they share
certain characteristics with people I have known, but none of my characters
are just like someone I know or once knew. Those of you who have read
this know that some of the situations are quite outlandish, and that’s
intentional, to some degree. If I had written this too realistically,
then someone would have said I lifted it from the court cases that my
husband hears in his job as a superior court judge. I’ll say this—
you probably wouldn’t believe what passes for dinner table conversation
at my house. When David tell us what happened at work, it just isn’t
the same as hearing how many widgets were manufactured at the plant.
Oh, no. His tales are often quite entertaining.
When I first started
The Gift Horse, I was going to write a romance, but
it just wasn’t in me. Instead, what I wrote is in many ways the
opposite of a romance. This story doesn’t involve two people who
are meant for each other and just figure it out yet. Instead, it’s
a psychological study of why people do what they do. It isn’t
about love at all, but it is about unusual friendships. While Angie
gets top billing, this book is in many ways about Billie. To me, she
is by far the most interesting character, and she is the character who
undergoes the most changes as the story progresses.
Characters are motivated,
just as real people are, by what they want. My main character, Angie,
wants money, an education, and a family. Those three things are paramount
to her because that’s what she didn’t have growing up. If
you’ve been poor, then it’s easier to understand Angie.
If you’ve lost close family, that helps as well, because Angie
has lost both of her parents by the time she is a teenager.
I wrote this story
to explore the gray area of "why would anyone put up with…"
and I filled in the blanks with lots of crazy stuff. I really don’t
like predictable books, so keeping readers guessing "what will
happen next" was paramount as I created The Gift Horse.
Presently, I’m
trying to find a home for a futuristic story about surrogate parenthood,
and I’ve gotten one rejection, so I’ve sent it off to a
new publisher, and I’ll just have to wait for an answer. In the
mean time, I’m still talking about The Gift Horse,
and selling a few at events such as this.
Thanks for your
attention. Do you have any questions?
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